Saturday, March 19, 2011

Reality Check!

I just happened to be scrolling through some back posts of my blog and I suddenly had a major REALITY CHECK! I had written a long post back in December that listed each of the legal steps we needed to progress through in order to bring our chicos home. The last time I remember looking at it we were at step 3.

Well, I just noticed suddenly we are at STEP SEVEN! Oh, my word! How did that happen? I mean, Step 10 is- Meet Children! We're almost there! I feel in shock! I mean, I know it in my head, but just now it really hit my heart!

I am not an overly emotional person, but lately I am really starting to have a full range of emotions! I am vacillating between total "I can't think straight because I'm so stinkin' excited" to "Oh, Lord, this is so much bigger than what I can handle. Are you absolutely sure you will give me strength? Cause I am not so sure."

It is very easy to let myself go down the mental trail of all the "what-ifs". They run the gamut all the way from, "Will we have enough money to stay in country a month", to "What if we have 3 kids with severe RAD and will our family be destroyed by it" to "WHAT IN THE WORLD ARE WE DOING?"

But I know that is completely giving in to Satan's desire to get me to doubt God's sufficiency. So lately I'm having to do a lot of "taking my thoughts captive" and "renewing my mind". I'm having to listen more carefully to the quiet whispers of the Holy Spirit since our life is such a whirlwind of activity  and I am easily distracted. I'm so thankful too, for a hubby who keeps me grounded and yanks me back to truth when I stray.

I'm not really sure why I wrote all this out, but somehow it has been therapeutic to get it out of my mind so now I can move on! LOL!


  1. You are getting closer and closer and it is hard to be patient now, especially when you look in the eyes of your new children! We hope you here about your approval soon and can move onto the next step!

  2. Hope you are all practicing your Spanish! Those first few months are agony trying to communicate (and I had 2 years in high school, a semester in college and 5 months in Mexico)! It's so important with older children to learn all you can ahead of time.

    Be ready to pull patience from places you didn't know you possessed (the kind that can only come from God himself). Also try to see things from your new kids' point of view, it may not be the point of view you expected.

    Prayers and hugs!

  3. I'm just getting caught up with your blog...I'm so excited to see your precious chicos!!!!! That's so awesome!!! We've been praying for you guys since the last time that we talked specifically about the heartbreak...YEA!!!!! God is so awesome!!!!


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